Wednesday, February 29, 2012


I stress more than I can digest...what do you have to offer anymore?

To not be

What happens when a body replaces a soul and the person you fell in love with no longer exist? Seems near impossible to bring about any kind of happiness, which in turn makes trouble a whole lot easier to get in. Nights are storms, days are winters and sun shines all of two minutes to make you remember...just to make you forget and to introduce you to regret. Suspicions from past convictions remain on the front line of the battlefield, "Never trust your enemy, never let them get to close" and you wonder why its so cold. 30 below. Enough to chill a soul let alone a frame. Distance in time, mind and miles. No difference. They all are the same.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

The Calling...

Everytime I think about it...I get the urge. I know for a fact that if I even indulge a little that I will no longer be able to control myself. I wind up in a dark place...waiting for poor lithium to take my place. I feel it. I feel it coming. But I am strong....or so my weakness has me convinced...

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Wonder Woman

Sometimes I wish I could take off this cape and use it as a shield to cover me as I ball myself up in a corner to cry.

Friday, January 13, 2012

The Game...



Sooner than later the lithium sets in
My eyes grow tired
And the clock tick tocks to the weary beat of my heart
For the next episode
For the next urge
For the next manic act
Calming my mind
Calming my rage
Calming my presence
I laugh expecting the next time lithium will comfort the thoughts
I enjoy the thought of the meeting you again
I cry at the thought of abusing you again…

Saturday, May 22, 2010


my tears are for your entertainment