Merry-go-round

Im so sick and tired of this merry-go-round we're stuck on. Around and around and around and around we go. Forever touching the same spots in the past because we're on a non-linear course since you refuse to let go. Unable to move forward. Stagnant. Going around in the same cirlcle of distrust, misuse, mental abuse and fucked up attitudes. Insecurity is the worst drug to abuse. Yet its the one you constantly choose to misuse. When addicted its worse to get over than crack. Once you lose your trust and security of someone you can hardly ever get them back. I was wrong in the past but i promise you now im right but Im not sure if i want to ride your merry-go-round for the rest of my life...