The Calling...

Everytime I think about it...I get the urge. I know for a fact that if I even indulge a little that I will no longer be able to control myself. I wind up in a dark place...waiting for poor lithium to take my place. I feel it. I feel it coming. But I am strong....or so my weakness has me convinced...

Wonder Woman

Sometimes I wish I could take off this cape and use it as a shield to cover me as I ball myself up in a corner to cry.

The Game...

You.

Lithium

Sooner than later the lithium sets in
My eyes grow tired
And the clock tick tocks to the weary beat of my heart
Waiting…
Waiting…
For the next episode
For the next urge
For the next manic act
Thinking…
Thinking…
Calming my mind
Calming my rage
Calming my presence
Expecting…
Expecting…
I laugh expecting the next time lithium will comfort the thoughts
I enjoy the thought of the meeting you again
I cry at the thought of abusing you again…